the letters file...
Re-reading lucid, sane, and inspiring materials is like taking a bath. Even tho' the tormentors swarm with thoughts and stir up sentimental emotions, those who came before left a helpful legacy. Sometimes, I just want to immerse myself in such veracities and never leave their presence.
drawn back into the possessive, clinging embrace of personal love affairs
-- a contemplative re-read of Yogananda's
Scripture of Love is a timely reminder about the difference between
human love and Divine Romance.
The line sandwiched in the middle can become torn, scarred, and mangled in the up 'n down or side-to-side, back 'n forth pendulum swing of accepting and rejecting the top line and/or the bottom line. Such a pumping is sure to be exhausting. And when played out in human lives, oftimes means that the flanking lines are both rejected -- male rejects female altogether. Or female withdraws from male. Stagnating stalemates are formed on both sides. And because of increased uncomfortability, especially if added to by emotional or mental torment, the schism formed by the double rejection, above and below, will reflect in troubles and tangles to be rectified at some future time in both the above and in the below. If one line is rejected and another accepted, then either heaven or earth will be fed and completion or harmony is disturbed. While a lesser condition is created, it still must be reconciled.
The succor to all
who suffer from the passions of choosing whether to stay or go, engage
or not engage, be celibate or chaste, is to
So often we withdraw to the cave, away from the physical presence of a lover. And that is a tempting place to hang-out -- withdrawn and away from the very challenges that have arisen in order for us to demonstrate, test, and rise above the siren's call of grasping the idea that only one person, only one Adam or Eve can reach into us so deeply as to call forth an outpouring of love such as we've never experienced, given, or thought was even possible. But that Love, once S/He rises up in us and washes away the human habits and traditions, tells us -- just as Yogananda does -- that Love that trusts Its' innate intelligence to go where it is needed to reconcile all things, to quicken what can be quickened, cure what can be cured-- is the best of love.
It is rare to meet those who vibrationally evoke the parts of Love that are hiding in caves. Some come along who are champions of love -- preaching, serving, giving. Exemplars unless one of them also carries the necessary Adam-Eve key that automatically re-creates the original trigram. When such a thing occurs, inevitably the sandwiched feeling will be re-lived. And we may experience this as pressures to make a choice between husband and lover, child or student, family or business, work or pleasure, heaven or earth. All of these are actually the activity of 3 lines or factors, not 2 -- whether visible and present in daily life or a combination of visible and invisible.
People --- wives,
husbands, lovers, children, friends, students -- come and go in life,
like water flowing under the bridge. We cannot
It may be easier for those who have no lover or wife or husband, constantly trying to impress another to love them only, to come back, or crying because we can't meet their cherished ideals or fulfill their personal dreams. But that is only until such time as the karmic layers are peeled away sufficiently to reveal the schism that formed between Adam-Eve and God and still exists within humanity, today. The reparation of this original trigram pattern will surely arise in every soul as all human soul carries the schismatic substance or seed-karma within it. In all cases, appearance is a matter of right conditions and right timing.
When this seed-karma surfaces in our lives, all our preferences and social-cultural political correctness will rise up to prevent us from completing the task. Every self-investment still clinging onto worldly ways and divisive structures will be challenged and exposed. We will be tempted to treat the situation as a cultural one, or ancestral -biological. The appearance of the Adam-Eve key signifies far more than repairing a schism or clearing up karma for any one biological family or country or racial division. And so the wise approach such a situation by not addressing the personal side, rather addressing the impersonal, spiritual side. Yet, all the while, the wise are also aware they will re-experience social-cultural emotions and thoughts coming from the collective pool. The natural vulnerability of being helpless to do anything other than Love and let it be, trusting God to do the work and dissolve humanity's karma, is to remove our "selves" from the equation altogether. Only God can return the original Adam-Eve-Divine trigram to its original harmony. He does so by not rejecting or accepting, not coming or going.
All love affairs carry this potential as seed-karma and a passion play to be lived through at some point in the life of soul. Yet we must remember that if we objectify Love latching onto a particular personality-face as the beloved instead of Love merely loving Love, evenly and equally; if we try to possess, claim, or own love for our very own selves or as even coming to or from any self at all, then Love's light-beaming facial heart will be hidden in shadow, eclipsed by the reflecting mirror-moon of our personalized passions.
And THAT which ever and always shines through the naturally transparent, schism-free Adam-Eve-Divine trigram must wait for another day to make true on its promise to reveal Itself as the Light Unto the World. Eden waits for all. But sadly, grasping thoughts and clinging emotions arising from and through every fallen Adam and fallen Eve are thieves and robbers to the natural quickening that comes from standing near-to God's Love.